my mind

My journal has about two pages left yet my mind feels like it is exploding. This is a first for me,finishing the pages of a journal before the year ends. I have a lot on my mind, I have a lot in my heart. I think there are days I get tired from just thinking about what I have to do, constantly chasing deadlines, fighting hard to remind myself to live in the here and now. It is not easy when every tomorrow seems to have a lot waiting, a lot pending wondering why they all don't end today. Too much planning and no action frustrates me. I hate it when I lag behind but I also don't like it when someone else hinders my movement.

The mind is ever active with amazing ideas for things I'm passionate about but don't seem to have enough time at the moment to pursue. I have to be patient. The obligation is taking first place before the desired, seems to be the story of my life. but this too shall pass. I have heard many people say women are great multi-taskers, I am yet to see that quality in my life but I believe sometimes you need to handle one thing at a time for effectiveness. I am learning that it doesn't have to be a case of either or, that I can and actually am capable of doing more than two things at once which are even opposites. so Imma go to my room and encourage myself in the Lord. Surely He knows the desires of my heart and He alone sees the biggest picture. Once again I sing, keep my heart Lord, my ever dreaming heart and to this Lord I add, help me to put my mind in order. There's too much going on in there...