I think of Jesus’ miracles and his disciples and myself. I know the end of the story because I know that Jesus is going to calm that sea with just a whisper and that great group of people following him around will eat to more than their fill. I am quick to take position on that very high horse I must have attained from reading the bible a lot. I know I’m probably the only one who does that, wonder how unserious the disciples could be! I mean, take Peter for example, how do you drown when you are walking on water with Jesus?! As in seriously, what is your deal? So I tend to take most if not all my lessons from what the disciples did wrong and in my head I probably sound like a zealous preacher
“Don’t focus on the storms around you lest you drown, focus on Jesus and you will walk on water! Drowning comes from focusing on the storm! Ignore the storm people! Ignore the storm! Don’t be like Peter!” The message would probably be entitled Peter’s syndrome
Being a lover of music and words, I really listen to songs, as in I can give you a synopsis after the first listen. Yes, synopsis, I like this word :) . Anyway so music, I was listening to a song and basically the persona was Jesus based on what He was saying. It seemed like he had re-done the beatitudes, and maybe made them simpler!( am I the only one who needs some help with those?) He was saying blessed are you as you weep and pour perfume at my feet, blessed are you as you tremble and wait for the first stone thrown at your sinful disgrace, blessed are you leper when all you’ve known is the fear in their eyes and so many other blessed broken things.
But then, he also says, blessed are you as you shake your head to two tiny fish and some bread, blessed are you as you walk on water only to drown when you look away. He calls them blessed, those very ones that doubted him! Why?! I don’t want to be like them, considering the many times I have laughed at Peter’s zeal and uhmm…mishaps.
As the song sunk into the very depths of my heart, yes it did, my high horse seemed to lose its legs. Have you ever asked why on earth a group of grown men with their heads screwed on properly, with 20 20 vision would take 5 loaves and 2 fish to Jesus seeing the multitude,(by the way that means a really big crowd)? Put in their place, I would have more naturally rounded off those tid bits and told Jesus we couldn’t find anything; but not them. Think about it. All of a sudden, this mustard seed faith business seems to be trying to make sense. They may have shook their heads at what they were presenting to God but they presented it anyway and they are called blessed.
|I bet this boy asked himself that question.|
Isn’t that all that is required anyway? To present ourselves, imperfect as we are and watch Him be Himself, supernaturally awesome! I think of Peter and how He walked on water; most times I have said that but thought
“That is the story of how Jesus walked on water and Peter drowned and the disciples called Jesus a ghost(yes they did)”
I totally missed it. Peter walked on water. He was blessed as he thought He was seeing a ghost, blessed as he asked to join Jesus, blessed as he walked on water, even when drowning and calling out in fear, he was blessed.
I am blessed even when it seems like I have failed in my super natural attempts and I find myself drowning. I am blessed.
I am blessed when I shake my head at the seeming hopelessness of my situations. I am blessed.
I am blessed when I don’t understand the bible and scratching my head in confusion. I am blessed.
I am blessed because He desires that I am blessed. I am blessed because I am His. I am blessed because…there is no because for the blessing.