Hello there, my dear lovelies. It has been a while since i last blogged. I've been kind of busy with exams and all but I'm just about done now. the latest going on.I'm looking for a job on radio, TV and magazine all at the same time. I think it's about time. i had an amazing weekend. I visited a couple of friends in another university who hosted me for the night, had actually gone for a party on Friday but the fun lasted all the way up to Saturday evening. I love you guys at UCU. I don't remember the last time I'd had that much easy fun in the company of friends, so much love going around. Thank you Jesus for the gift of friends. then I spent the rest of my weekend at home,spent the whole of Monday in my pj's watching chuck. I love that series.
Life is beautiful. The Lord is surely doing so much in my life. He is giving me the desires of my heart, enlarging my territories and keeping me excited. These days, every new day is exciting! New opportunities to be a blessing to another. Living one day at a time but still in anticipation of the future. I spent some time talking to my mom about my plans and dreams, my heart was overwhelmed upon realisation of how much support i have from the home front, thank you Lord. The dreams are so many and one may wonder if all are possible, but we are all in agreement that they are possible.
I have wasted enough of my life just dreaming. its now time for action, somehow i know now is the time. I thank God so much for the boldness and encouragement He gives me unceasingly every single day, He is surely my best friend.For many years, I was timid and never tried out anything but by the grace of God, I am now boldly stepping up to the table He has prepared for me, a feast indeed. I trust Him, because I know He loves me. By the way,very soon I'll be giving you news about my new jobs,keep believing with me. There is so much I'd love to share but I also want to keep the blog short. I love you.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Today
I know where I am going. There may seem to be many options on my plate but I know which is my portion. that is the beauty of slowing down. Did I ever tell you about my passion for media? Just you watch the space, I even dream about these things. Have I ever told you I love music? Have I ever told you you need to meet me in order to fully understand me. I am tired. I want to be taken on a date, where I'll have personal time discovering another and being discovered. Mutual shock and wonder. I want to get all dressed up and beam with satisfaction as I see appreciation on the face of another even as words may not come. I want to take pictures and laugh over inside jokes. I want to eat ice cream and look at some one from across a table. I want to have a feeling in my heart that my head can't explain, secret smiles....I want to messasge back and forth. I want the anxiety at the though of running into some one. I want to feel special. This is how I get when I'm tired.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
In recent news
Gadaffi killed in the worst way possible, policemen leave dr.Kizza Besigye's compound, UTODA takes KCCA to court and ministers fox us when it comes to oil debate....in other more important news! hi friends!!! The amazing many of you who actually read my blog. I am supposed to be doing research on my final year project but I've been sidetracked to blog. A lot has been happening in my life lately. I really thank God for this week because it is only Wednesday and I've already learnt a lot.
Monday might have been my best I had gone to bed sad, discouraged and almost depressed. I was in bed by 9:30pm, now that's early for me, but the Lord soothed me to sleep and when I awoke, He spoke to me truth that just gave my heart wings. He spoke to me of rest. teaching me how to work from rest versus resting from work. He spoke to me about faith and trust. As the day continued, he went ahead to put his words into actions as I stepped out to do things and saw his divine favour upon me. Later on in the night, I had a date with him, amazing. and that was just Monday. He continues to speak to me of rest,joy and peace. Today I read proverbs 16 and it blew me away. I make my plans but at the end of the day God is sovereign, He causes things to work out, and to my good at that! He's on my side, YEY! today, He shows me His love through people. to know that I am that loved! mind blowing and humbling at the same time. oh how He loves me! reminds me of a hymn. "it's so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word, just to lean upon His promise, just to say thus sayeth the Lord...."
Monday might have been my best I had gone to bed sad, discouraged and almost depressed. I was in bed by 9:30pm, now that's early for me, but the Lord soothed me to sleep and when I awoke, He spoke to me truth that just gave my heart wings. He spoke to me of rest. teaching me how to work from rest versus resting from work. He spoke to me about faith and trust. As the day continued, he went ahead to put his words into actions as I stepped out to do things and saw his divine favour upon me. Later on in the night, I had a date with him, amazing. and that was just Monday. He continues to speak to me of rest,joy and peace. Today I read proverbs 16 and it blew me away. I make my plans but at the end of the day God is sovereign, He causes things to work out, and to my good at that! He's on my side, YEY! today, He shows me His love through people. to know that I am that loved! mind blowing and humbling at the same time. oh how He loves me! reminds me of a hymn. "it's so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word, just to lean upon His promise, just to say thus sayeth the Lord...."
Thursday, October 6, 2011
my mind
My journal has about two pages left yet my mind feels like it is exploding. This is a first for me,finishing the pages of a journal before the year ends. I have a lot on my mind, I have a lot in my heart. I think there are days I get tired from just thinking about what I have to do, constantly chasing deadlines, fighting hard to remind myself to live in the here and now. It is not easy when every tomorrow seems to have a lot waiting, a lot pending wondering why they all don't end today. Too much planning and no action frustrates me. I hate it when I lag behind but I also don't like it when someone else hinders my movement.
The mind is ever active with amazing ideas for things I'm passionate about but don't seem to have enough time at the moment to pursue. I have to be patient. The obligation is taking first place before the desired, seems to be the story of my life. but this too shall pass. I have heard many people say women are great multi-taskers, I am yet to see that quality in my life but I believe sometimes you need to handle one thing at a time for effectiveness. I am learning that it doesn't have to be a case of either or, that I can and actually am capable of doing more than two things at once which are even opposites. so Imma go to my room and encourage myself in the Lord. Surely He knows the desires of my heart and He alone sees the biggest picture. Once again I sing, keep my heart Lord, my ever dreaming heart and to this Lord I add, help me to put my mind in order. There's too much going on in there...
The mind is ever active with amazing ideas for things I'm passionate about but don't seem to have enough time at the moment to pursue. I have to be patient. The obligation is taking first place before the desired, seems to be the story of my life. but this too shall pass. I have heard many people say women are great multi-taskers, I am yet to see that quality in my life but I believe sometimes you need to handle one thing at a time for effectiveness. I am learning that it doesn't have to be a case of either or, that I can and actually am capable of doing more than two things at once which are even opposites. so Imma go to my room and encourage myself in the Lord. Surely He knows the desires of my heart and He alone sees the biggest picture. Once again I sing, keep my heart Lord, my ever dreaming heart and to this Lord I add, help me to put my mind in order. There's too much going on in there...
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Higher heights
Just in case Papa san or his agents are reading, I so did not steal your album title. These are just words. It's just that life is super exciting these days. I seem to have discovered the more worthwhile side of everything.Yesterday, I was wondering about my life and realised I didn't really start living until 2009. That is when I started the journey of being true to myself thus the endless not missing of concerts even if it meant that I had to go alone. I am discovering better things. A better way to love, a better way to be loved, a better way to hurt even.
At some point I thought alcohol gave a really good high. I have discovered a high without mornings of throwing up and walking around as though half dead. Instead the after effects are, you appear more youthful, more energetic and excited about life. Yes, yes, you say you have heard time and time again but there is no high like love, the love of God. Everything seems brighter. Everything seems clearer and those that aren't, you don't care enough to notice. I have so much on my plate right now but I have learnt how to rest amidst the work. Doors are opening for me, I can see where I am going and it is superb! not anxious about narra! I have learnt when you stop pursuing all else and pursue God and set your mind on things which are above, the rest just come chasing you. Of course I'm a work in progress and I'm still learning but.....AMAZING. Not afraid to cry, not afraid to be real, not afraid to be seen, not afraid to smile, not afraid to be the background, not afraid period! because I am high 24/7. Oh how small everything looks from way up here...
At some point I thought alcohol gave a really good high. I have discovered a high without mornings of throwing up and walking around as though half dead. Instead the after effects are, you appear more youthful, more energetic and excited about life. Yes, yes, you say you have heard time and time again but there is no high like love, the love of God. Everything seems brighter. Everything seems clearer and those that aren't, you don't care enough to notice. I have so much on my plate right now but I have learnt how to rest amidst the work. Doors are opening for me, I can see where I am going and it is superb! not anxious about narra! I have learnt when you stop pursuing all else and pursue God and set your mind on things which are above, the rest just come chasing you. Of course I'm a work in progress and I'm still learning but.....AMAZING. Not afraid to cry, not afraid to be real, not afraid to be seen, not afraid to smile, not afraid to be the background, not afraid period! because I am high 24/7. Oh how small everything looks from way up here...
Saturday, August 20, 2011
SPEECHLESS
I don't think I have the words to fully describe how I'm feeling. Going for camp in Gulu is one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. it is hard to comprehend the fullness of God, actually impossible. He constantly amazes me, how he honors and blesses us with His presence.
Dear Jesus, the plans you have for us are numerous and amazing! You are very personal and keep meeting each and everyone of us at our points of need. You spoke to me, healed me of a hurt I had pushed to the back of my mind instead of dealing with it. There was so much love, so much understanding. I met many new, amazing people. is it possible to form such a bond in one week that you feel like best friends? Yes, I miss my friends already, people I would like to get to know better, people I would love to share my life with, to open myself to and have them open themselves up to me. Indeed, better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.
Dear Jesus, the plans you have for us are numerous and amazing! You are very personal and keep meeting each and everyone of us at our points of need. You spoke to me, healed me of a hurt I had pushed to the back of my mind instead of dealing with it. There was so much love, so much understanding. I met many new, amazing people. is it possible to form such a bond in one week that you feel like best friends? Yes, I miss my friends already, people I would like to get to know better, people I would love to share my life with, to open myself to and have them open themselves up to me. Indeed, better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Life is just a great big rock show!!!
I've just been googling a site that just brought tears to my eyes. I watched it on TV one morning many months back as I was ironing preparing to leave home. 99 days, a video diary of a baby who was born with a rare disease and he had about a 2 percent chance of survival.However his parents recorded every single day of his life,everyday they celebrated a birthday for him and the father made a video diary with all the pictures. What is so moving is the gratitude these parents had; they were thankful for the smallest of things and for every little thing that was about their son. They did not complain, cry scream and ask God why them, they were simply grateful for their gift in the form of baby Elliot whom they had to feed through tubes and they had to take turns sleeping because someone had to watch him all the time.
Elliot lived for 99 days and every one of those 99 days was celebrated. I'm 21 and 5 months come tomorrow. There are days, weeks months I have spent, wasted complaining and feeling sorry for myself. I lack nothing, physically; nothing is working against me when it comes to my health. One of the blogs I'm following is called "its a good day to be alive" this just shows you this person's view on life. It reminds me of a song by Nickelback, if today was your last day......how would you spend it? Would you panic, be fatalistic because of all the chances you never got, opportunities you missed?
99 balloons/99 days.Everyday is worth celebrating as long as you are breathing but even when your time comes to stop breathing, it is a celebration because death is not an end in itself but a means to an end. If I'm running to the loving arms of Jesus, why not celebrate. My bible, which I haven't read in a really long time tells me that all things work together for good to those who love the Lord, to those who have been called according to His purpose. All things. Life is indeed a great big rock show if you decide to go in and watch the show, be part of it, scream with joy and cry with emotion at the realization of dreams. But if you decide to stay outside and complain that the music is too loud or the timing is not right or I'm so late I might as well not go...then life will just be the great big rock show you keep missing and burn with envy as others tell you about it and show you their keepsakes. I'm just saying....
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